I love October. The weather is charming and beautiful, the sun is the perfect shade of warm, the sky the brightest blue, the grass is just elegant. I feel like everything is coming alive after a harsh winter (read: summer). I'm glad I finally have the confidence to enjoy days like today...it made a regular Sunday afternoon so much easier to enjoy. The half a dozen friends and a couple of fancy beers surely helped and I feel much calmer, and even sleepy for the first time in a few weeks.
I'm 18 days away from tying the knot with my lover boy. Yep, less than three weeks away from our big day. I'm VERY excited, a little nervous, and my mind is racing a mile a minute with all of the things I have left to do. I'm glad I took on so many project early on though...I feel as though our wedding is more personalized this way, like I'm more involved than someone else doing everything for me, leaving me feeling a sense of accomplishment. I think this is the most important aspect since I feel so drab and lacking in accomplishments in my day job. It's so unrewarding to be a drone, doing the same thing over and over, day in and day out at the same miserable place after the same miserably slow drive every morning and evening. Sure, efficiency is something of a high for me when I find the perfect rhythm...but it's also when things become mindless and unchallenging the most. I need some spice in my life or I may just go crazy.
This must be why I feel the overwhelming need to keep learning new arts and crafts, to master the art of cake baking and decorating in two diet dialects in less than three weeks, and to sew Halloween costumes for everyone I meet in one week. Totally realistic right? For those of you I've promised a cake tasting party, don't discount me just yet...I have a habit of surprising people when they least expect it. So in the meantime I'll continue doing research on the web (this thing is so awesome, I can do anything if I give myself some time to read and learn, and watch a Youtube video!), then try, and hopefully execute my goal instead of failing. *sigh* On that note, I think I'll get some rest before I turn the kitchen into a war zone testing out the latest version of gluten free chocolate cake and Italian buttercream frosting ala Martha Stewart. You know with her name on a recipe it will include the use of multiple appliances, a candy thermometer, and multiple tries to get it juuuust right. But I'm feeling positive and good. I can do anything, remember?
